JayC_DyNaStY's Xanga

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Wed, 25 Feb 2009 06:19:57 GMT

The Days Without Rainbow 沒有彩虹的日子 - Day 2

the second day is still the same, nothing's changed, a couple of phone calls and sms didnt change a thing.i was doing the exact same thing like the first day, i was sitting at my favourite park, drinking my favourite beer and thought of all our memories.it's even worse than the first day, my heart is just tearing apart and i feel like im drowning into the abyss.i think of those sweet promises and vows you made to keep myself cheer up, but in fact, it's even worse, cause it hurts so bad. getting drunk 2 days in a row made me suffer, i thought getting drunk might help a bit but actually it didn't help a shit.i barely couldn't walk home, i used to have you next to me everytime when i got drunk in the past, but now, i'm alone.

i put it down on my life, that i love you from the bottom of my heart, cause you the sweetest thing ever in my life, i cry so many times, ever since the night you were gone.
讓我們走完這一次完美的結局, 好像當初的約定愛著對方一直到老.. 你這該死的溫柔, 讓我心在痛淚在流.

if we can make it right this time, i promise you i would work so hard on my plan, just 6 years, i would marry you on time, and then we will have our home, our kids, like Jon and Kate, happily ever after. i swear, i swear in my mother's grace.i knew you want it, everything is under control, would you finish this marathon with me together for the sake of our love?

day after day, i slowly go insane.i can hear your voice on the line, but it doesn't stop the pain.i hear the laughter, i taste the tears, but i can't get near you now.if i see you next to never, how can we say forever?wherever you go, whatever you do, i'll be right here waiting for you, whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks, i'll be right here waiting for you.

是否對你承諾了太多　還是我原本給的就不夠
你始終有千萬種理由　我一直都跟隨你的感受
該你瘋　讓你去放縱　以為你　有天會感動
關於流言　我裝作無動於衷

直到所有的夢已破碎
才看見你的眼淚和後悔　我是多想再給你機會
多想問你究竟　愛誰
既然愛　難分是非　就別逃避　勇敢面對
給了他的心　你是否能夠　要得回

怎麼忍心怪你　犯了錯
是我給你自由　過了火
讓你更寂寞　才會陷入感情漩渦

怎麼忍心讓你受折磨
是我給你自由過了火
如果你想飛　傷痛我揹

Monday, February 23, 2009

Mon, 23 Feb 2009 19:52:21 GMT

first of all, i owe an apology to my wifey, i haven't updated my xanga for ages, it's really been a long long time.but now, i realized that i have to write about us, maybe it's too late, i'm really regret that i didn't do it right at the beginning, i didn't listen to her, maybe im not good enough?maybe im too stupid?but im still me, i still love her more than ever.i used to so into a song called "Rainbow Heaven" 彩虹天堂, i think the lyrics is sad though but it mentioned about his life with his girlfriend as in rainbow heaven, the feeling is so strong. so im going to use the name of the song for my journal's topic.and now, i entered into the life without my rainbow, she's the rainbow in my life.

The Days Without Rainbow 沒有彩虹的日子 - Day 1

eventually you told me the whole thing that happened these days, ain't nothing but a heartache. and im just keep asking myself.. did i do something wrong?what did i do wrong?i believe in love, i believe in us either, but do you?since you told me about the thing, everytime i close my eyes and think of what we've been through, what we always do, like play fight under cover, kiss goodnight on the bed, cook food at the kitchen together, showering together, fake-slapping each other faces, watching dvd together, go drinking just two of us, all the laughter and the tears, sweet and sad memories, every of the tiny little thing, keep flashing up on my mind.. is that it?i really love you so, i really do, but is that not enough for you?i know im not doing the way that you want me to but it doesnt mean i dont love you with all i have.. i put my blood into our relationship, i did everything i could.i tried my best. and im still trying.

i can't believe it, tell me i'm dreaming, that we are still "we".it was amazing, said you were lucky, that you found me... and i'm just down, you left me with a note without a sound, i figured i must have been such a child, you'll never know how much i've been around, how my heart just frowns.. if you're down, i'll be your little Marie be your clown, i'll take you round and round and.. if you don't mind i could be your standing ground, even if that means i'd drown.

and i finally find out why you kept repeating this song in my car, is that it?

i got dreams, i got dreams for both of us, what's up with our kids?our home?our wedding?how could we end up like this, babe?!you really really will never know how much i've been around, is that what you want?keep you from the cold?!damn baby, just don't understand what we went wrong, i gave you my heart, i gave you my soul, i gave you...

here's my wishlist :
- first one, i would create a heart changing love
- second one, i'll take yours and fill it all the way up
- third one... but i don't need alot of wishes cause i'll be okay if i get one

if i had one wish, we would be best friends, love would never end, it would just begin, if i had one wish, you would be my boo, promise to love you, trust me i'll trust you, if i had one wish, we would run away, making love all day, have us a baby, if i had one wish, i'd make you my whole life, and you'd be my wife, make it right this time.

i don't even know how we ended upon this road..

might be cry but i'm still a man, might be a man but i still cry.

so true.

我討厭　陰天的風　冷的那麼刺痛　

只有你　能夠撫平所有的寂寞

昨天的風箏在角落　被誰丟到了路口　

我很不想讓你　找到離開的理由

每一夜　閉上眼睛　我看到了惡夢　

你微笑　但是旁邊的人不是我

天空切開一道裂縫　直接割到我心中　

不想裝作脆弱　也不想愛的懦弱

其實我非常愛你　不想失去你　

難道我沒有權利說我不願意

你給了他的吻　雖然只有餘溫　

可知道我多渴望抓住你的心

我知道他很愛你　你怕他傷心　

我每天假裝開心　害怕你離去

可不可以任性　求求你不要去　

藏在我心裡　最後一句　其實還愛你

難道我眞的沒有權利嗎?

Thursday, June 05, 2008

Thu, 05 Jun 2008 04:26:03 GMT

* Happy 4 Months Anniversary * IV

4 months already!can't believe time flies that fast!!took photosticker and went to karaoke for little celebration with my wifey!and i still remember the promise that you made, and now, i should work so hard for us, for our future, and also, my wifey's prom and birthday is comming up in June, got alot of work to do huh.. im really glad and happy that i met you, it is really sweet that we can take good care of each other when we're sick, remember?i love you, i do, i really do, im madly in love with you LP!!by the way, thanks for the little gift that you gave me, that's so sweet *big kiss*

No one else comes close.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Sun, 11 May 2008 13:00:14 GMT

* 100th Day of Romance *

being with you for a hundred days, i just can't express my feelings how i feel for you and how much you mean to me by words.a little suprise for my wifey, a bunch of flowers, a movie, and a bottle of champange to do a little celebration for our hundredth day of happiness and romance. i love you sweetheart.

Time marches on, and I love you more.

and also we had family lunch and dinner with our parents for mother's day hehe..

Friday, May 02, 2008

Fri, 02 May 2008 02:40:45 GMT

* Happy 3 Months Anniversary *

happy 3 months anniversary sweeheart, we've been through many ups and downs, happiness and saddness these 3 months, just feel like we've been together for a long long time, but it's good though, isn't it?!i'm so glad and happy that i have you around these days, just like before you belong to me, my world is like black and white, and now, you brought me colour to my world, you made me the happiest man in the universe, i mean it. we both sacrificed something for each other, and in the end of time you know it's worth.you don't have to doubt on me anything, im honestly and truly loving you, i just can't stop myself falling for you, i'm totally addicted to you, you're like my everything and im never gonna let you go, and i also promise you for that, i will never leave you, when you need me, i'll stay by your side no matter what, nobody else can bully you anymore, just hide behind my back, let me take care of everything, i love you babe, i really do.

never let go.. i promise.

a hundred years is not gonna change that.. i love you, Lydia Siu.

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 09:40:31 GMT

* Happy 2 Months Anniversary *

happy 2 months sweetheart!love ya!you mean so much to me, im glad and happy that you're here with me, what else can i say?!i love you so much and it's gonna be more and more as day by day.No matter what, i'll never let you down, i'll never make you cry, all i want is just to make you happy just to see you smile, just to make you giggle just to stay by your side.I just want to make you the happiest girl in the universe, my princess that's my goal, i love you till the end of time forever and ever no matter what, we're meant to be together, always.. always and forever.

You Complete Me.

Monday, March 24, 2008

Mon, 24 Mar 2008 17:31:57 GMT

today is the first day that you left to taiwan, i really miss you so bad.think of you every single moment, just can't get you out of my mind =[ so the only way i can express my feelings is to write!still got 4 days to go huh, we'll see each other pretty soon, love ya sweetheart!

can't wait for the night when i can hold you tight.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Tue, 18 Mar 2008 05:23:10 GMT

haven't updated my blog for a very long time, cause i got busy life these days =]
busy with my bros, busy with my girl indeed, having a great life with my girl and never been better.
got so much pictures to upload, but still too lazy for it, so here goes the pictures with my baby girl first, my queen, my wife, my love. Love ya with all my heart and soul *Big Kiss* i'm dedicating this to you sweetheart.

Jay C. & Lydia Since February 2nd, 2008

Mad Love, Sexy Lydia, Cool Jay C.

love the things we have the same..

love the way you smile..

love the way you hug..

love the way you kiss..

love you stick around and spending every single moment with me..

i cherish every little thing that we've been through.

i cherish every hug and kiss.

and i dedicate this song to you..

i'll always stay by your side whenever you need me, i'll protect you no matter what; no matter how far the distance, no matter what the consequence, just whistle, and i'll come running.

p.s. i abso-fucking-lutely love you.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Tue, 19 Feb 2008 17:22:53 GMT

是否還記得一起看煙火　我在你眼裡　看到閃爍
冷冽的寒風　把你吹向我
抱你在我懷中　沒想太多
愛情裡的心動　常常讓我難以去捉摸
付出感情太多　原來多情人總被傷的最重
想起你的擁抱這感覺　短暫紀念
在你我之間　有時說變就變　就像煙火下一秒消失不見
想起你的微笑這畫面　短暫紀念
放在心裡面　你說過得永遠　留在昨天　就當它是　我最美的紀念

晴朗陽光洒在我的天空閃爍, 像是笑著告訴我愛到最後是寬容..

its just firework.

Saturday, February 16, 2008

Sat, 16 Feb 2008 00:29:36 GMT

Happy Valentine's Day

had a pretty great night, cant say nothing, no pictures to upload, no names to mention about, no.. nothing!just wanted to say, i am happy, but still, there's sth missing.

unofficial love.

genious & fool. Who would be that genious and who would be that fool?